Reflections on a blessed Epiphanytide…..

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Man am I ever behind…….Last time I posted was on Twelfth Night…..and now we stand a week away from Lent……..where did those six weeks go??? 😛

Although I have still been praying the Daily Office with some regularity, the month of January was both eventful and Grace-filled. While I wanted to post here, I often found myself with little or no spiritual energy left to come up with something creative to say.

For that I want to apologize 😦

Now I’m back 🙂 and I feel compelled to share some thought and reflection about what has been going on in my life…..

The biggest event in the last month without any doubt was my ordination to the order of Deacon:

The experience was at once joyful and sobering. On one hand, it was the realization of a life-long dream. On the other, I was faced with an unpleasant thought: Crap! I have to be an adult now :P.

While I know my status has changed, it feels very weird when people call me Reverend or Father, or Padre. I suspect that this shock will wear off eventually….It’s amazing what can happen if I throw on that black shirt and collar :P.

I am still me….but now I’m me with responsibility attached. I represent something that’s bigger than myself..which is something I try to do anyway…but now I find myself more conscious of it.

More than that though, I am struck by the fact that it finally happened….after hard work, some luck and amazing people around me.

Those people also include those who read and contribute to this blog. By your presence, I made it through a very dark time in discerning my vocation. Your honest and open sharing of your thoughts and challenges to my own have pushed me to be a better writer, theologian…but most important, a better person. If I don’t say it often enough…… thank you! ❤

All in all…..I am left with this thought…which I hope will inspire you to pursue your own passions.

Dreams are real. Even amidst the crap, they can come true. We are never alone or without support. And God is amazing! +

Morning Prayer: January 10th

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Psalms: 1, 2, 3
Old Testament: Isaiah 40:12-22
New Testament: Ephesians 1:1-14

Pretty much how I looked this morning getting up

I lie down and sleep;
I wake again, for the Lord sustains me.
I am not afraid of tens of thousands of people
who have set (Psalm 3:5-6)

I totally slept in this morning…..hence the later post time :P….

But as I read today’s Psalm portions I was struck by a thought……what gets us moving in the morning???? What motivates us to make it through the day?

For myself–who is currently unemployed and waiting on the Diocese–one of the reasons I get up is to pray and do this blog lol :P……Sounds cheesy I know…..but it gives me something constructive to do while in the “in-between” stages of ministry.

Another thing that keeps me going is involvement in my parish life at St. Jude’s…..While I am not directly involved in many of the committees, the rector and congregation have allowed me to sit it on meetings and learn from their process 🙂

Also….(and I need to catch up on this very soon..I like to visit Kensington Village retirement home and visit with the residents. :). Sadly, I have not gone since before the holidays and my inner procrastinator keeps putting it off :P.

In all of this though, God is guiding me. I seriously don’t know what’s going to be happening in the next couple months….but I have to travel in faith that things will work themselves out. 🙂 It’s not an easy task, but one that is slowly teaching me patience.

So I leave the question with you…….what keeps you going in the morning? What are you passionate about??? What is the ministry to which God has called you? +

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