Psalm: 38, 119:25-48
Old Testament: 1 Sam 20:1-23
New Testament: Acts 12:20-25
Gospel: Mark 2:13-22
Patristic Reading: An excerpt from a Treatise on the Mysteries by St. Ambrose

But it is for you, O Lord, that I wait;
it is you, O Lord my God, who will answer.
16 For I pray, β€˜Only do not let them rejoice over me,
those who boast against me when my foot slips.’ (Psalm 38:15)

Something in my brain tells me that I’ve probably done a post on this verse before….so if I am inadvertently repeating myself, I apologize…anyway it is definitely a sentiment that really rings true for me right now.

I totally confess that I do not do well with the whole waiting thing. I’d even go so far as to say that I am one of the most impatient people on the planet. This doesn’t mean that I can’t do the laid-back thing and let things develop…..a lot of the time that’s what I have to do in my job(s)….but that doesn’t mean I particularly enjoy the process itself. πŸ˜›

That discomfort has been heightened for me of late…since–in two weeks time–one of my bishops is coming to check out the ministry that I do here in London.

I honestly have no idea how it’s going to pan out….and part of me thinks that I will probably fall flat on my ass.

That being said, I have since started meeting with my Spiritual Director and he and I have discussed something very important over the last few weeks…. Letting the Third Person into the conversation

It’s not about me trying to convince the Bishop that I should be ordained, or to show him that I am doing good work….or even about trying to achieve results.

I have to work hard yes…..but more than that…..I have to leave room for God in there somewhere πŸ˜›

The point is not to put my trust in my own abilities…but in the knowledge that the Holy Spirit will show up when She is needed most. Not only to give me strength and ability….but to give light to the darkness…and to allow a bishop and a lay leader to meet as brothers in Christ…..not as superior and inferior….

Let’s just hope I can keep my sanity until the visit! πŸ˜› +

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