Psalm: 77
Gospel: Luke 9:9-20
Patristic Reading: N/A couldn’t find a copy online 😦

You keep my eyelids from closing;
I am so troubled that I cannot speak.
I consider the days of old,
and remember the years of long ago.
I commune with my heart in the night;
I meditate and search my spirit:
‘Will the Lord spurn for ever,
and never again be favourable? (Psalm 77:4-7)

Huh. Maybe one of the Psalmists was an insomniac after all :P.

This particular passage of Scripture pretty much sums up my life. Not in terms of outright pessimism…..but definitely in terms of worrying and being heart-sick.

By nature, I’m an over-thinker….I’m one of those people who at 2 and 3am think about life, the universe and everything.

During the time when sane people are sleeping, I lie awake and wonder what will happen next. If the things I have done during the day were good, bad or indifferent.

This is one of the points in the Bible for me that doesn’t so much talk about the nature of God….but of the nature of human beings….or put differently, a time when–instead of us reading Scripture….Scripture reads us.

Our relationship with God is not meant to be static, and it’s not all going to be rose petals. It is in verses like these that I take comfort in the knowledge that people have struggled in the same way that I have…..and that they too have come out on the other side into God’s marvelous Light. +